Giving A Pass

This post will begin my Ethan Clarke Appreciation series, (and I can’t help myself- I completely adore/love the lad and it pretty well shows and for me, it was love at first sight). I have to say, of all the things I plan to include in this series, this one in particular was tough on me. But nonetheless, like everything else, I’ve done, this one comes to you straight from my heart, while at the same time, it still breaks over these two; there’s no other way I can gracefully say it without fighting back tears.  This is my emotional audio/visual bombshell, I guess you can say, and I strongly feel without having a measure of conceit, this is my strongest, most heartfelt and emotional tribute I’ve done to date. I was debating whether to just keep this one as part of my video diary, but I thought why should I do that. Without divulging too much of my surrogate family’s secrets, let’s just say as any disappointed older sister would be at the actions of her younger siblings, I guess I’m both trying to understand the reasons for their actions, and at the same time, trying to reconcile my own broken heart.

I guess the main question I’m probably going to be asked, is why did I chose this particular song for this clip? Very good question..and I’m still coming up with the answer for that one, suffice it to say that my muse (bless her heart) works in ways even I don’t fully understand. I’ve been into the band Rush for a very long time now and lately I’ve been going back to their music, partially to see about getting more music ideas for my video edits/mash-ups. My previous blog entry features one of my favorite Rush songs partnered with some of my favorite South Africa scenes from Bel Ami’s films. For this scene, of Ethan and Tommy, I had a bitch of a time finding a song to use..I love the scene they created together. It’s some of the most passionate, high octane erotica I’ve seen BA do, at least from the time period this one was shot. This scene has so much high energy that you can feel it emanate from both of these guys. I knew that finding a song that was going to mesh well with theirs and this scene’s overall intensity, was going to be very difficult, if not impossible. I’ve had challenges even struggles to find songs that would fit a particular scene, and I’ve come up lucky in the past. But for this one, I was stymied.

Originally, I was planning on using Rush’s song Animate, from Counterparts instead, and all systems were go for its’ use. Until my damn muse decided to get involved….bitch! Somehow their song The Pass, from their album Presto, popped into my head, while in the shower (yep, you guessed it…that’s how I most times come up with my great ideas..*wink*). When I returned to my computer, I listened to the song with the clips I had in mind to use and I almost couldn’t believe how well it fit..at least within the context I subconsciously had in mind.You may already know the circumstances surrounding their departures from Bel Ami. If not, you must forgive me for not disclosing them here…I don’t feel comfortable doing that. Like I said earlier on at the opening of this post, this is “family stuff” and I don’t feel right about spilling my family’s guts. You must forgive me for pleading the fifth on this one, but even still, I weep sad, brokenhearted tears over their departure. I miss them; I miss them a hell of a lot. I miss Ethan’s high-spiritedness and his passionate erotic energy as well as his beauty. And I miss Tommy’s spuniness and outlandish sense of humor and his sexiness.But despite any sadness I may feel, I have to also smile at what a tremendously powerful scene of erotica they gave to us, and with all the scenes they’ve given us in the past. For that reason and that one alone, I think I’m willing to give these guys a pass. It’s my hope, we all can too.

Video clips taken from Pillow Talk 1 (2006); dir. George Duroy; all video clips remain the sole property of Bel Ami Entertainment and no copyright infringement is intended.

Music clip, The Pass by Rush, taken from their album, Presto (1989); all music clips remain the sole property of the copyright holders and no infringement is intended.